I was fearful about many things.
Sunday morning: Stung.
You know the Sting?
Someone acts like they care, and then halfway through the conversation you realize it was really about them, to get themselves something or to stop something that bothered them.
And I had anxieties.
Cast your cares on the Lord.
Well, I did.
Picture me throwing (I have bad aim)
To Jesus (he’s an amazing catcher)
Naming just first names of my cares, people for whom I care, or situations in a word.
But it was odd:
The more I threw the cares,
And he caught them, and that care was lifted,
More cares came up.
It was like seeping in through cracks.
I have cracks?
Like a tire with a nail in it,
Like a sinking rowboat I was bailing while water seeped in.
You know that feeling?
Can I bail fast enough for long enough just to reach shore?
But God…But GOD!
Gave me time out.
I sat in my car during choir practice.
I wrote my heart to Jesus:
I am way too anxious, Lord.
My heart lightened.
I felt I should read my email, and there was this post:
The Only True Antidote to Worry.
I read it and I soaked in her answer.
“Thy will be done.”
I knew it by heart, for I recite the Lord’s prayer more often than weekly.
Thy will be done.
Thy will be done in each of those things I threw to you!
That tire with the puncture image comes nearest to what happened next.
There’s this stuff you can squirt into a tire instead of air and the air pressure pushes the stuff to the leak so that it fills the leak, sealing the tire again, and then you can put air in to fill the tire up.
I prayed deeply, thy will be done in everything, and the Holy Spirit was that sealant. It was at that point that I realized there were cracks that had been letting in worry, fear, and doubt.
Sealed with the Holy Spirit is a biblical promise from Jesus.
I never thought of it being a sealant effect from the inside out to make me strong against the temptation to disbelief!
I hope it lasts.
I’m pretty sure I don’t have to worry about it lasting because He will last: He will keep his promises to me. All of them are yes in Christ.
All praise and thanks to him!
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